So where was I?  Oh yeah, deciding on the vacation.

Well, I am going!  Threw caution to the wind and decided to just GO.  No regrets yet lol.  Airfare is booked, passport has been renewed, and final payment made on Friday.  All I need to do now is show up on May 16.

The kitchen project is also plugging along.  Met with the designer lady, Lora, Saturday morning.  She drew up some plans based on the measurements the guy took a couple of weeks ago.  Do you have any idea how many different kinds of kitchen cabinet styles there are?  And colors?  It’s overwhelming.

But, I listen to my gut after listing to my wallet.  On top of the many colors available, you can also have cabinets painted in your chosen “custom color”.  I wanted an off white color and would like to throw in some gray.  The antique white was too yellow/cream looking and the other alleged off white was, well, too white.  Out came the million choices on the Sherwin Williams paint chips and BAM! there was a slightly off white color with a slight gray tone.  Sold!

I went with the slightly cheaper cabinet door and the custom color.  In the end, it was about the same price as the higher grade cabinet in a color I didn’t love.

Then it was time to decide on the counter top.  Granite or quartz?  Color?  As I stood there like a deer in the headlights, I secretly wished SIL was there to help choose.  She loves to to interior decorating and is really, really good at it.  Nothing jumped out at me and that decision still has to be made.  Followed by the backsplash.  The tile / stone place is local so I plan to swing by there – with a floor tile – to look at more samples.  Thinking I will go with quartz, though.

When I was just finishing treatment last year, someone in the online support group mentioned a (free) program at the YMCA through the LiveStrong organization for cancer survivors.  When I checked locally, the group had already started and there were no openings but I was put on a waiting list.

Well, last week the lady at the Y emailed me to say I made the cut for the next group starting next week.  This came just after I decided that I had enough on my plate for now….no singing group this time around for me.  But now this?  Do it or not?  It’s twice a week from noon until 1:15.

I decided to do it.  This is something I need to do for myself.  In some ways, I feel like I didn’t take enough time to transition from treatment to “real life”.  This is the year for taking advantage of opportunities while I am able to do so.

So it’s been busy and will continue to be busy.  Sometimes I feel like the last few years have either been moving along at warp speed or at a crawl.  All of 2015 was crazy with projects around the house and travel followed by a year of doctor appointments and treatment.

There has to be a happy medium here somewhere.  I keep telling myself that I will work extra hard this year to keep the salary up to pay for all this stuff.   And then, hopefully, I can dial it down a notch or two.

I still fear dealing with Round Two of cancer, more than I could ever tell you.  THAT keeps me going.  So much to accomplish in an uncertain amount of time.

It’s a sobering thought.