Yes, there are days when it takes a lot of convincing to just get out of bed.  Two long weekends in a row really didn’t help matters.  And now I only have one full day of work left until….chaos.

I feel like I should say something profound but the words just aren’t there.  Perhaps after the results of the surgery are in I will feel something one way or the other – relief or more anxiety.  It could go either way at this point.

So this weekend was spent mowing the lawn, dealing with a lot of pain on Friday, cleaning the entire house, running errands, five loads of laundry, and making soup.  I am tired, physically and mentally.  I am tired of thinking about what needs to be done and figuring out how to get it all done.  Tired of making a to do list.  Tired of worrying.  Just tired.

There are still things to do, like clean up the kitchen, that will get done at some point.  I just feel no desire to do it right now.  Cleaning is a much hated activity.

My brother arrives Wednesday afternoon and surgery will be early Thursday morning.  I remain hopeful that it will only be an overnight stay in the hospital.  Chance will be at the kennel Wednesday until Monday or Tuesday next week.  I’ve been trying to come up with things for my brother to do while he is here – partly because he should have some down time while he is on a pseudo vacation and partly so he will be out of the house to leave me alone.  I haven’t told him that part.  🙂

Sorry, this is getting rambly so it is likely time to move along.  Have a good week and please send good vibes this way Thursday morning.